I was recently in NorCal (in July) and while I was there...you'll recall I was facetiming with Audi, still chatting with Scientist/Cat Dad and had not matched with Texas yet.
So the last night we spent in Napa...
My friends weren't feeling well and decided to head home after we had lunch. I didn't wanna go sit at the airbnb so I stayed out solo and had myself a lovely day of shopping, wine tasting, and amazing sushi.
In the midst of sushi, I found myself overwhelmed with sadness for letting XFactor go.
I know, I know....what the fuck. WHY are we still talking about XFactor?
It was a meal I knew he'd love and I was so close to his house in NorCal, I just felt all these stupid, drunk feelings.
I text him.
That leads me nowhere so I call him.
CRINGE CRINGE CRINGE.
Finally, my drunk ass gets back home, passes out and forgets it all happened.
Until I wake up Monday morning - feeling like death because I remember what I had done.
I am so disgusted with myself. I resolve at this point that I need to block XF from my phone and delete the contact card. This idiotic behavior MUST STOP.
I am holding myself back.
I am the reason I haven't found someone new.
THIS is all my fault.
So I do it. Then I proceed to block and delete all of the other fuckboys who exist in my universe.
Finally, I get out of bed and go join the crew. We get packed up and jump in the car to head to the city.
I am sitting in the back seat of the car and decide it's a good time to check my online dating apps.
The first guy I see - Texas. I then proceed to read his profile aloud to my friends who all die of laughter. I message him back and tell him he is the funniest profile I've ever encountered.
He replies and asks for my number and the rest, you already know.
So I truly believe that the universe forced me into that dark corner so I could FINALLY cut the fucking cord on my ex's. Once I was able to do that, it rewarded me with this incredible guy that I am so excited about. It's kind of crazy how fast things can change when you stop fucking yourself over.
So the latest with Texas...
We are headed to Texas! A few days after I am back from Europe. To meet his parents and hangout with his friends.
He booked my flights. Planned the entire thing. I didn't lift a finger. It's been so easy, I'm kind of amazed.
If you recall, in the three years of fucking with XF, I never met his parents.
In the three weeks of dating Texas, I have planes tickets to do just that. They also know I exist and are excited to meet me.
Crazy how the world works.
So there ya have it. Things are going SO well and I'm hoping that this is finally what I've been waiting for. If it's not, I am definitely getting WAY closer so either way, it's a win.
Audi wants to see me Friday and as of right now, I have no plans...problem is - I think it's a shit move to see a guy I have no desire to date when another guy has booked a trip for me to meet his family.
Soooooo I need to cut that cord via text, I'm just not sure how I'm gonna do it yet... stay tuned!