Ever have those days when you know you should be so proud and happy but you're sad and melancholy?
I had a giaaaaaaant event on Saturday that has been really consuming time and $ wise -- it went well but when I woke up Sunday, all I felt was deflated.
Typically post event there is at least a 24 hour high mixed with a side of exhaustion, but this was just sad.
Audi was texting me saying he felt the same way now that his guys weekend with his best friends was over and he was waiting to grab an uber to fly back home.
So we facetimed, chatted about our weekends and he said that once he's back from his business trip on Thursday he wants to spend the weekend hanging out with me, being low key.
I know audi is a bit of a mess but I do like this guy so I'm going to proceed cautiously and just see what happens next.
Other news...
I had a great first date on Thursday with Texas. He's from Austin, super cute, 5'11, good job, HILARIOUS sense of humor. We had dinner and drinks and when it came time to go, he realized he didn't have his wallet and had a heart attack. I paid and life went on but he was mortified.
Date highlights - he stopped a few times to tell me I am way more beautiful in person than in my photos (very genuine about the compliment) -- he asked what my weekend looked like and I mentioned my big event, he asked if he could come and while I know that isn't the smartest move -- I said sure, why not. I warned him I wouldn't have any time to dedicate to him because it was going to be 300+ people and I'd be crazy busy. He understood and was still very down to show up.
So all in all -
He showed up in a suit looking all kinds of great, kept me laughing the entire evening and at the end - kissed me goodbye. It was a great date even with the wallet snafu.
Saturday -- he showed up! I was looking for him at the event but didn't see him and also didn't get a text from him saying he was there so I kinda figured he was going to flake out.
Finally, during one of the designers he texted me and I asked where he was and then suddenly, he pops up next to me. We proceed through the show, I intro him to a friend of mine and then I am back up to speak at the front.
After the show - I intro him to the rest of my friends (who I had all warned that this guy I met the other night was coming) -- they were super impressed he showed up and all agreed that was a big sign of confidence considering this was a big night for me.
After the event, my friends and I depart and head to grab dinner. Texas is cracking jokes left and right and we are all dying. The group agrees, he is FUNNY. When the bill comes, Texas jumps up, hands his CC to the waitress and buys everyones meals and drinks.
Whaaa!? That was easily a $200+ bill - HOW nice! He says it's because I had to pay on the first date so he's trying to make it up while also impressing my friends. Power play, I support it. MEOWWWW!
After dinner - my gf drives us all home - I'm the first stop and I ask if he wants to come over -- (it's late and I'm wiped) AND he politely declines saying, "I will soon but tonight is not that night."
So respectful I can't be upset. We kiss goodbye and I proceed to pass out instantly.
Yesterday he's texting me saying how i killed it on Saturday, how I looked great and he was really impressed by the entire event. Oh did I mention...we have the EXACT same love languages and our myers briggs profiles are each others perfect fits? and he is from my favorite city in the USA -- what a WIN.
So in person, there is chemistry. There is attraction. So far, I am really digging him and hoping that things progress as well as they have in the past few days. He seems like a no bs type of guy.
I am seeing him again Wednesday night so stay tuned.
Last but not least.
Cat dad aka the scientist.
We went to topgolf yesterday which is typically really fun...this time...not so much.
He is a VERY good golfer...I am not.
He's nice and sweet but really not the most engaging person to spend time with and every time anything of substance is discussed, he diverts to something of zero substance.
OH AND WE STILL HAVEN'T KISSED.
So we golf then grab dinner and he drives me home...gets out of the car to walk me to the door, gives me an awkward ass out hug, no kiss, just awkwardness. I walk inside and let out a giant sigh...WHAT IS THE DEAL HERE.
When we were driving I mentioned how a lot of people who RSVPd to show up Saturday didn't and it really bummed me out -- he then goes, "not to change the topic but do your cats get along?"
UH ya dude, my cats love each other. Why is that relevant?
Also, we had dinner near his house so he could've easily asked if I wanted to stop by and meet his cat aka get me there and kiss me?
Point is - he's sweet but awkward and no bone in my body wants to fuck him so I think that we know, this is where the trail ends for us. I kinda think we both know it...however he did text me after, I've replied but now I need to let it simmer and just focus on Audi and Texas and see where those two take me.
Last night ended with...me drinking wine alone at home feeling sad then sadder because I am convinced wine just takes how you feel and amplifies it whichever direction you're already in. Texting with Audi who was exhausted and getting ready to hop on a redeye to DC. A few texts with Texas and Scientist, anddddd a sad me in bed way past my bedtime. (Sounding like such a debbie downer today, I'm aware)
In summation -
Scientist/Cat dad is getting cut this week.
I like Texas the most (let's hope he doesn't suck in bed)
Audi is still hot as ever and the physical chemistry is on point soooo I'm not eliminating that until there is a solid reason to (aka I decide to date someone else exclusively)
There are of course lots of new toads in the apps but I think this week I need a breather from adding anyone new to the roster. TBD, TBD - I have been known to change my mind.
Now it's time for another cup of coffee and a workout to snap the fuck out of the sad haze and get shit done.
Ciao!
Elle
I had a giaaaaaaant event on Saturday that has been really consuming time and $ wise -- it went well but when I woke up Sunday, all I felt was deflated.
Typically post event there is at least a 24 hour high mixed with a side of exhaustion, but this was just sad.
Audi was texting me saying he felt the same way now that his guys weekend with his best friends was over and he was waiting to grab an uber to fly back home.
So we facetimed, chatted about our weekends and he said that once he's back from his business trip on Thursday he wants to spend the weekend hanging out with me, being low key.
I know audi is a bit of a mess but I do like this guy so I'm going to proceed cautiously and just see what happens next.
Other news...
I had a great first date on Thursday with Texas. He's from Austin, super cute, 5'11, good job, HILARIOUS sense of humor. We had dinner and drinks and when it came time to go, he realized he didn't have his wallet and had a heart attack. I paid and life went on but he was mortified.
Date highlights - he stopped a few times to tell me I am way more beautiful in person than in my photos (very genuine about the compliment) -- he asked what my weekend looked like and I mentioned my big event, he asked if he could come and while I know that isn't the smartest move -- I said sure, why not. I warned him I wouldn't have any time to dedicate to him because it was going to be 300+ people and I'd be crazy busy. He understood and was still very down to show up.
So all in all -
He showed up in a suit looking all kinds of great, kept me laughing the entire evening and at the end - kissed me goodbye. It was a great date even with the wallet snafu.
Saturday -- he showed up! I was looking for him at the event but didn't see him and also didn't get a text from him saying he was there so I kinda figured he was going to flake out.
Finally, during one of the designers he texted me and I asked where he was and then suddenly, he pops up next to me. We proceed through the show, I intro him to a friend of mine and then I am back up to speak at the front.
After the show - I intro him to the rest of my friends (who I had all warned that this guy I met the other night was coming) -- they were super impressed he showed up and all agreed that was a big sign of confidence considering this was a big night for me.
After the event, my friends and I depart and head to grab dinner. Texas is cracking jokes left and right and we are all dying. The group agrees, he is FUNNY. When the bill comes, Texas jumps up, hands his CC to the waitress and buys everyones meals and drinks.
Whaaa!? That was easily a $200+ bill - HOW nice! He says it's because I had to pay on the first date so he's trying to make it up while also impressing my friends. Power play, I support it. MEOWWWW!
After dinner - my gf drives us all home - I'm the first stop and I ask if he wants to come over -- (it's late and I'm wiped) AND he politely declines saying, "I will soon but tonight is not that night."
So respectful I can't be upset. We kiss goodbye and I proceed to pass out instantly.
Yesterday he's texting me saying how i killed it on Saturday, how I looked great and he was really impressed by the entire event. Oh did I mention...we have the EXACT same love languages and our myers briggs profiles are each others perfect fits? and he is from my favorite city in the USA -- what a WIN.
So in person, there is chemistry. There is attraction. So far, I am really digging him and hoping that things progress as well as they have in the past few days. He seems like a no bs type of guy.
I am seeing him again Wednesday night so stay tuned.
Last but not least.
Cat dad aka the scientist.
We went to topgolf yesterday which is typically really fun...this time...not so much.
He is a VERY good golfer...I am not.
He's nice and sweet but really not the most engaging person to spend time with and every time anything of substance is discussed, he diverts to something of zero substance.
OH AND WE STILL HAVEN'T KISSED.
So we golf then grab dinner and he drives me home...gets out of the car to walk me to the door, gives me an awkward ass out hug, no kiss, just awkwardness. I walk inside and let out a giant sigh...WHAT IS THE DEAL HERE.
When we were driving I mentioned how a lot of people who RSVPd to show up Saturday didn't and it really bummed me out -- he then goes, "not to change the topic but do your cats get along?"
UH ya dude, my cats love each other. Why is that relevant?
Also, we had dinner near his house so he could've easily asked if I wanted to stop by and meet his cat aka get me there and kiss me?
Point is - he's sweet but awkward and no bone in my body wants to fuck him so I think that we know, this is where the trail ends for us. I kinda think we both know it...however he did text me after, I've replied but now I need to let it simmer and just focus on Audi and Texas and see where those two take me.
Last night ended with...me drinking wine alone at home feeling sad then sadder because I am convinced wine just takes how you feel and amplifies it whichever direction you're already in. Texting with Audi who was exhausted and getting ready to hop on a redeye to DC. A few texts with Texas and Scientist, anddddd a sad me in bed way past my bedtime. (Sounding like such a debbie downer today, I'm aware)
In summation -
Scientist/Cat dad is getting cut this week.
I like Texas the most (let's hope he doesn't suck in bed)
Audi is still hot as ever and the physical chemistry is on point soooo I'm not eliminating that until there is a solid reason to (aka I decide to date someone else exclusively)
There are of course lots of new toads in the apps but I think this week I need a breather from adding anyone new to the roster. TBD, TBD - I have been known to change my mind.
Now it's time for another cup of coffee and a workout to snap the fuck out of the sad haze and get shit done.
Ciao!
Elle
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