This will likely be an annoying post because I am high on life right now so just a heads up.
Work is evening itself out thankfully - and dating has been SOOOO good!
I finally think I found what I am looking for.
Things just keep progressing so smoothly - I saw him Monday night and last night and last night was sheer fireworks.
Let's chat about Monday first.
He comes over for dinner, is very complimentary to my space which is black and white (his house is also black and white). The night is filled with great conversations and he's really incredible at being vulnerable and telling me things about himself.
With every word, we get closer and closer.
It's improving! We are still pretty vanilla but I am confident that in time, we can enter into different territories.
He left and I felt the most solid about him that I had thus far.
We plan to see each other Wednesday night for bowling and dinner downtown.
He decides day of to switch it up to a surprise outing. At first I'm a bit annoyed because I really like bowling and I haven't been since I moved to Arizona but then I decide to lean into the surprise date and go with it.
Let me tell ya, that shit was FUN! We have the best time eating pizza, drinking, and throwing axes. I actually wind up winning the competition which also made me happy. ;)
We then head back to my place when I decide we should stay out and go play skeeball and darts. We flip around and drive to the local bar by my house and proceed to compete in that.
The entire time he's being just the most incredible.
"I honestly don't know how I found you, you're EXACTLY what I've been hoping for in life and you make me feel so comfortable."
I admit that earlier in the day I deleted my hinge account (the dating app I met him and 47 through)
"You don't have to do this but I figured why not tell you...I deleted my hinge today...I logged in and saw all of these messages and I had zero desire to chat with anyone."
"That's so weird, I was thinking about doing the same thing today since I haven't been looking at it."
He admitted Saturday that the week prior he had a first date scheduled and he decided to cancel it. He told me that he knew he wouldn't like that girl as much as he likes me so there was no point.
Truth be told - that made me smile. He's no bullshit even though he's younger than me. andddddd it seems like he was looking for a girl worth ditching the apps for too. (I mean it takes 10 seconds to re-download so if this goes south, it's not hard to remedy)
Anywayssss - he's just saying all of the right things, doing all of the right things and it's kind of a pinch me moment where I am so insanely happy, secure, and excited for what the future will look like with this person in it.
We get back to my place, sit on the couch talking more and then head into bed. We start hooking up and he asks if we can lose the condom which I'm fine with because I trust him and sex is waaaay better without.
As we are hooking up I look up at him and say, "you know we're gonna end up dating, right?"
"Yeah, I do and I'm really fucking happy about it."
Needless to say, that was the best sex yet with him.
I also told him that he cuts me off when I'm trying to tell him a story and he's gotta be better about it. He was really appreciative of me calling him out on it and said that it's really great that I can confront an issue vs pretend it's all good. "I can self correct and I will self correct, I promise you."
So he sleeps over and this morning, despite not being a morning person I am packed with adrenaline, just super happy to have him there as the first person I see.
Like I said, corny/sappy post alert. Also, we took a really cute photo last night which makes me happy too.
Could this guy be my real deal?? I'm gonna manifest that he is because I've been hella patient and the universe keeps giving me all of the signs to keep going.
He's joining me for a friends birthday party on Saturday and we'll see what happens next. :)
Ohhhh and this AM when he was in the bathroom he texted me screenshots of his hinge and bumble being deleted.
Is headed back from Vegas sometime today - he's been texting a lot, sending photos, etc. He hasn't asked to see each other this weekend yet and truth be told, I am booked solid on weekend plans.
As much physical chemistry as there is - mentally, it's not there. He also has his walls built very high - it's all surface level shit vs actually connecting and feeling close. SOOOOOO I think that we've hit the end of the road for him. He did mention doing a few sporting events together in the future but I think it's a safer/smarter bet to put the odds on Texas and let Audi go lie about his age to someone else.
Sex < a guy who is emotionally available, honest, and amazing.
See - I can grow up when I want to ;)
OHHHHHH last but not least. Cat dad/scientist.
Texts the other day saying...
"It's been 8 days since I sent those last two texts so I am assuming you're no longer interested so best of luck to you!!"
Ummmm... your last two texts were statements, not questions. and its been 8 days, you are correct...if you were into me, don't ya think our texting would've stayed consistent like it was before??
Clearly we both aren't into each other soooo why bother even sending that text? ^
I didn't reply. At first I felt bad and wanted to but then I realized I don't owe him a conversation about this - we haven't even kissed after a month of seeing each other. Bruce, BYE.
Anyhoo - ciao for now!