There is a reply needed, esp as we near 1 month of you having said letter and NO reply being returned.
I meannnnnn if you received a letter from someone pouring out their heart, wouldn't you reply??
It's the right thing to do people...
Arash STILL hasn't responded to my letter I left on June 1. It's currently June 26.
The frustrating part is - I want some kind of conversation with him about it and I don't feel like I should have to reach out again.
I was going to shoot him an email today but upon further thought, I don't think it's the best idea. He should have the respect to come and say something to me. Agree?
Basebally. After a month+ of being penpals (aka texting and facetiming) he came over on Monday night. We finally kissed. It was good.
So what's the problem Elle?
The problem: he has superrrrrr tiny hands. It's super weird to me that I have bigger hands than a guy. He is also my height and has a terrible sense of style. He works in MLB so he's always wearing sweats and team apparel which means he doesn't have to focus much on wearing normal stuff but still... He also has ZERO hobbies outside of work and watching sports. Definitely one dimensional dude.
I am trying to stay open minded. I told him I hated that he has no hobbies and he said, "well if I was dating someone, I'd do more!"
Dating someone shouldn't be the reason why you suddenly do more in life. The idea of living a mundane fucking life should motivate you.
I don't expect to date my twin aka someone working on ten thousand different projects, doing ten thousand different workout classes, listening to business development and psych books, etc.
But I do hope you have atleast ONE other thing that you're passionate about, outside of work.
Am I asking too much??
XF for example loveddddddd cooking. I appreciated that he was so passionate about something and how much time he dedicated to it.
Anyhoo - what else.
I am talking to an NFL player on hinge right now...TBD on if that one goes anywhere...expectations are low which means they can only be exceeded.
Back to Arash for a second. Since I've spent so much time talking to Basebally, I realized my first choice is STILL Arash. How do we get this thing moving along? SOMEONE HELP.
Other news - a guy I went on a date with waaaaay back in DC (idk what we named him, let's go with Raj) became my BFF once I moved away. He's visited me a few times and every time I am back east, he is there to spend time together.
Last night he calls me at midnight my time and we chat for about an hour and I am telling him how I am frustrated with Basebally and his one dimensionalness. He's telling me about the basic bitches he keeps meeting and how nobody holds his attention either. Fast forward, we hang up and he sends... "miss you so much, can't wait for you to come back."
I reply, "miss you more. you're the only one who gets me."
So when I was recently back in DC before I left the letter for Arash I went to dinner with Raj. We had an amazing time and I was being super touchy feely. We were holding hands, etc, etc. I was trying to be open for him to finally kiss me after all of these years and of course, nada.
If we are supposed to "marry our best friend" I have quite a few to choose from and I am trying to remain open to them all. Raj is super successful and has a ton of hobbies, I also respect the hell out of him. Before, I was not into it- but now with new perspective, I am totally here for it IF he ever makes a move.
As you can tell from this post, shit is still just kinda floundering along. I have a date with a guy from the league on Sunday. He's a fellow cat dad and seems pretty normal / easy to talk to. SO stay tuned on that one...I am working on keeping options open and not jumping into something exclusive with Basebally. I know he's thinking that's the direction we are headed but for me, there is no rush. I hope the next boyfriend is someone I can see a future with.
Arash, Raj, where yaaaaaaa at fellas?
XF you can still fuck off. :)
ta ta for now.