No goodbyes, no see you soon, no explanations.
I have tried many times to write another post and the words seem to fail me.
Each time I start a story and get maybeeeee 1/3 through, I slam my computer closed and walk away.
To be honest, I loved the blog in it's raw form and now that it's censored, it really depresses me.
I've missed writing and telling my crazy stories (I still have them, believe me) but knowing XF and Snake could be reading - really just threw me off.
I am training someone to become my protege and she happens to have a lot of stories herself + shes younger than me SO you might have a new version of Elle coming your direction...
I'm not sure yet but stay tuned...
My other idea was to scrap the blogging and just do the podcast. Now that version 1 is password protected I could do version 2 with my real name and actually share it with my network on social media/it could turn into something legit.
I have enough haters/followers on social media that wouldn't be able to resist listening to a podcast. Shoutout to my ex'sssssss and their wifeys, I know you be lurkinnnnn. (just don't double tap that like button ;) )
If ANY of you are still with me, what are your thoughts? Do the podcast? Use my real name? Use my writing name? Publicize it? Keep it small? Don't do it at all? Let the blog die?
WHAT DO I DOOOOOOOOO!
SO I apologize for yet another hiatus -- you can count on a hiatus = me going through something or another and basically I've just been really sad that I can no longer be Elle because XF knows who Elle is now.
I will try my best to keep this updated until I make a final decision on...
dont publish book
The only good news I can report is that I have been writing my book and so far, I am half way through chapter 1. AKA not much progress to report. It would really help if Bobby would let me look through that old box of Elle shit he has at his parents so I could remember more details of that era...I am a BIT rusty. Thanks XF for clouding my brain with our drama, you have drown out all the past shit. #silverlining?
Anyhoo - I apologize. Please come back to me readers. I see those analytics and I knowwww I have let you down.
Love youuuuu come back to me.