What are all those suitors back east upto during my hiatus? Hmmmmm....
Well, let's start with Z, the sexy persian. He's been really amazing about keeping in touch. He's a great texter/communicator and I don't mind this text penpal thing we've got going on. Typically I don't wanna chat at this level until we've met and I know I like you buttttt this is good - keeps the momentum moving.
It's kind of nice talking to a Persian, especially while I am surrounded by ALL Persian friends and family in California. Reminds me that it might be really nice to marry one and have little prince/princesses running around one day. I am not so mildly obsessed with my little cousins who can do absolutely no wrong haha so if I could replicate that with my own kids, ahhh life would be pretty complete. So I am confident we will actually meet when I return, after two years of tinder matching - its about damn time.
That brings me to my next Persian....Arash. Bestie and I were discussing all of the questionably, confusing comments he's made anddddd have concluded that he's definitely got feelings for me. Arash hooked up with besties twin in February when we were both in California together and I legitimately had a heart attack and was ready to throw up. First off, besties twin is also my bestie so to see your best guy and best gal hook up...Gosh, it's so weird and so, so, so many emotions.
I was dating XFactor when it happened...it also happened to be Valentine's Day. IDK if I already told this story so I'll keep it brief but....
We all went to a bar that I absolutely didn't want to go to, Arash was all over me most of the night and then I lost him...I go searching and searching and bam, middle of the dancefloor he's kissing bestie2. I grab bestie one, tell her I need her keys because I need to GTFO of this bar. This is all tooooooo much.
Bestie1 and I leave, I get home and pass out on her couch, pissed as hell. About an hour later, Arash rolls in, drunk as hell, jumps on me, wakes me up and yells at me for leaving him.
UGH. Being mad shows I care, showing I care is fucked up because I am dating someone but it's a reaction that I literally couldn't stop. It really, really hurt to see. He hooks up with people all the time, idk why this time was so hard for me. Normally I don't care...
We wake up in the AM, I sneak out to have breakfast with my cousin and when I return Arash is mad I didn't take him with (as we had planned). I cold shoulder the fuck out of him and then we get in the car to go to the airport. He fesses up that they hooked up, I say "cool", he says it won't be anything serious, I say "cool" again and it's done.
XFactor landed the next day and I refocused my energy on that, putting those jealous feelings far, far away.
SO back to present day - I facetime Arash who is babysitting my kitty cats and he's telling me about his weekend with Becky (my new name for every chick he dates, too many to keep track of) and I ask him if this is turning into a relationship, he just spent an entire weekend with her....
He's like, "I don't think so, I'm not sure how to express to her that I want to keep this casual...." I ask him why, he clearly likes spending time with her, so what's the hold up?
He gives me some BS about enjoying the single life...quite the opposite from when he returned from that NYC wedding, angry and sulky about being at the singles table...
We move onto other topics and I tell him that I was talking to Z and he got a little iffy about the Persian, male, roommate situation... to which he replied, "he should be worried about me, bahahaha!"
So I think down the road, we could potentially be the real deal but he still needs to decide 10000% that is what he wants and then approach me about it. I can't be making the first move in a situation as tricky as this one. I am also in no rush to explore this because I need to keep rebounding and feeling fun/free. Dating Arash is not exactly mysterious...we are best friends, roommates and I know far too much about him as it is. Only thing that would change is our dynamics and the addition of sex. Too weird to even contemplate right now.
Cyrus. He's texted a bit, always keeps it casual, no clue where his head is at, let's see if he makes a plan for when I return...which fella is gonna snag the Sunday night date spot?
Jake. Facetimes daily, snaps constantly, has been really great. Who woulda thought? Very apparent he is not down to lose me again. I also told him all about our double tinder date Saturday -- honesty is sometimes the best policy to keeps expectations at bay....
XFactor. Fucking XFactor. I HATE HIM. Such a goddamn panzy, UGH. The fam of course grilled me on this, and when I told them I ended it, they did a happy dance. UGHHHHH. The salt in my wound is that he isn't even trying to win me back. Not even a little bit. Makes me VERY sad but I know I just need to keep focusing on forward.
As of right now, the power rankings are:
1. Z - I am really looking forward to meeting him + he is SO hot
2. Cyrus - he is kind of the "want what you can't have" thing...doesn't text much so when he does I am all about it
3. Jake - still doesn't want kids anytime soon, I have to keep him lower on the totem
4. Arash - that is an all or nothing situation, NOT ready for it.
Tonight is taco tuesday with dos toads, aka another grouper!
Bestie and I are killlllin it. As if you'd expect anything less. I am going to get this girl over her X if it's the last thing I do.
So time to go do girly things...nails, hair, coffee, etc. Gotta soak up this vaca time :)