A lot of useless dating.
In 2017...
Arash - 2 hookups (no sex), not worth it. Open and closed that door at pretty much the exact same speed.
Antonio - On and off, on and off, off and over it. The cat and mouse thing has been fun (I had a great time last Friday) but I am over it. This is stupid and I only feel stupid for letting it happen.
Rami - Oh hello sex pot. A stupid one who thinks I was falling in love with him but daaaaamn amazing sex, body, face, style, meoooow. But he's kind of an idiot who doesn't have his shit together and likely wont for another two years. Still in party boy mode which I am not about, at all.
Chase - Great in bed, boring ass personality. There will not be a date 3 or a hook up #3 because unfortunately, sex does involve some talking and even writing about him bores me.
Velcro - Motherfucking Velcro. I can't with this guy. You all know the story with him. If you don't, scroll down to this post and this post. I will say, I am glad I met him because he gave me such blogworthy stories. No, I haven't heard from him since I called him out on fucking Megan.
Jake - Still texts me daily but I haven't seen him since NYE...but he saw me that night with Antonio...oops...Safe to say things with him are going nowhere.
XF - We went to an NBA game last night and it was actually a lot of fun. Tomorrow night he's my date for this gala we went to last year. I told him he better put his party pants on because I am not dealing with the sourpuss situation again. I refuseeeeee. There is more to the story with him (alot more actually) but I am saving that for it's own post SO stay tuned.
At the game last night I decided I'd post a photo on my snapchat with XF. All the toads above + many others follow me on snap so I knew by posting this I would be nailing a few coffins as well as confusing the fuck out of others.
Seconds after posting I get a snap text from Rami. "OMG This guy again!?!?!"
Ugh.
"If he needs lessons in bed, let me know, I can teach him! hahahaha"
"No sex, just basketball."
and then more useless snaptexts.
Someone's jealous....and someone is also a jerk.
So yes, I knew damn well what I was doing by posting the photo with XF but a large part of me still believes that he is the guy I will marry. I know it sounds ridiculous but I've dated A LOTTTTTT and I've never been able to truly envision a future with someone like I can with XF. He is a giant pain in the ass but so am I and yeah, I think if we can learn to let go of the past, focus on the future, and be patient with each other - we can make it work.
There's nothing perfect out there - so I need to stop searching for unattainable and focus on improving what I do have.
...I think.
xo xo,
Elle