broad, muscular shoulders
amazing style (YSL boots, Fendi loafers kinda thing....you know my soft spot for guys with fantastic shoes...)
Holy shit, Rami is $$$$$$. He's sweet, he's so incredibly sexy (I know I keep saying the same thing over and over but it is not an over exaggeration), and he's bomb in bed. (How did I forget that?)
The kissing, is hit or miss - we are improving and connecting a bit more on that but the sex...
oh the sex.
Yesterday a giant storm hit OC and the weather was complete shit. So he came by to pick me up and I asked him to come up to Bestie's door. When he walked in, I let him take off his shoes and jacket and then basically attacked him. (I haven't had good sex in over a month since I've failed to see Antonio)
All the kissing, then ciao to the clothes, thennnnn some great sex on the floor. (It's not my condo, I wanted to be semi-respectful??)
I had forgotten what kinda heat this fella was packing, talk about a pleasant surprise.
Oh and he knows what he's doing.
We have sex x3, grab coffee, and then he departs. He asked me to sleep at the spot he shares with his cousins so I said after the girls and I finish up movie night (we saw the 50 shades movie) I'll head over.
I arrive at midnight and lucky for me, all of his cousins are passed out so I get to avoid the awkward intro's and small talk.
We go to his room and within 30 seconds, here we go again.
We had sex for HOURS. I haven't done that in yeaaaars. THE STAMINA!
At one point, I looked up at his body and had an out of body experience...Is this actually my life? His shoulders are so hot, he is so hot, can I do this everyday, always? DAAAAMN.
Afterwards I ask him why he wanted to see me again considering we've met twice...first time when he replaced my bad date (and we had sex on Besties floor), & second time when he showed up at the bar we were at when I had no intention of speaking to him again. The one night stand that didn't want just one night ;)
"Elle, you felt irreplaceable and different...idk how to explain."
That is precious.
"But you meet new girls constantly"
"Yes, but not ones like you."
Okay, fuck me again. I can't deal with how perfect you are in this moment.
We hook up AGAINNNN then fall asleep cuddled. His cuddle game is on point, just like Antonio. (XF can't cuddle, he flips around like a ballerina all night - Jake also sucked at sleeping)
He wakes me up at six to more sexual fun, we pass back out, and I dip out at 8am to make it to my spin class.
He probably wants to date you, would you date him?
-I could easily date him. We'd be so cutsy and lusty. Oh the beautiful Instagram photo's we'd have... He's all PDA and I am allll about that. But long term? When things stop being so lusty and sexual and real life sets in? IDK. Falling in love/lust isn't the hard part. Finding good sex isn't the hard part. Making a relationship work and function over the long term is the challenge. I know we'd have a great time dating and I'd fall for him. (If you saw him, you'd see just how easy it is) BUT the logical side of my brain tells me that there just isn't enough in common to make it work for the long haul.
Oh and did I mention he's half Armenian? FML.
What if he wants a long distance relationship with you?
-HARD NO. I don't want a relationship right now as it is -- a LDR, fuck no. My answer would be: keep having your fun and working towards your goals and when I move back in 1.5 years, we can see where we are in life and if we are both still single, we can reevaluate.
Are you scared you are going to break all these guys hearts?
-I am not out to hurt each of the guys I am talking to. I am simply being selfish with my actions. If I want to sleep with Rami and not tell XF, I am going to. If I want to hook up with Antonio and then go to dinner the next day with XF, I will. Right now, I get to do me. I am enjoying each experience and purposely keeping each situation separated. Oh and then tomorrow night is Nate...this roster is stacking right on up. (Monday's post will surely be an interesting one...)
How can you say you love XF when you're fucking literally everyone?
-Love and sex are two very different things for me. XF and I could build a solid life together based on common interests, goals, and compatibility. The main issue being I want a shit ton of PDA and sex constantly - he doesn't. Even Antonio and I could build something legit if we ever move on from these X's. But sex? Sex is enjoyment. It brings you to life, it makes you feel amazing. It is a moment, a feeling, and it's not permanent. Sex can't buy you a house one day or travel the world with you. So I am having all the sex I want and figuring the love stuff out as I go. I am living in the moment, for myself, and if anyone has a problem with it, they can fuck right off.
XF spent two years being selfish. It was all about him and his problems, never about the collateral damage (me).
So no, I don't fucking feel guilty & I don't feel bad.
I'm doing me in 2017.