Thanks for asking though, I appreciate the insane amount of support & love - you are all amazing at reminding me....
1.what I deserve
2. what I wasn't getting
3. that I absolutely made the right decision
You know those people who get into a relationship then fall of the fucking face of the earth because they're so in love? Yeah, they suck and when things go south - they have no one to turn to because they alienated themselves when they were madly in lust.
I have always worked my ass off to maintain my friendships and not be THAT girl.
Times like this, it really pays off because damn, life is so much better with amazing friends around. So consider that your warning, friends come first. Just think about Blair & Serena and get your shit together.
So anyways, I am fine. No tears shed, no drunk texts sent (no desire to do that surprisingly) and no he has not reached out.
When I am feeling sad I go back and read our last text exchange and remember exactly why I made this decision and it reaffirms me. This is a new strategy I've employed and guys, I highly recc. it. Normally I go and delete all traces of an X from my phone and my life...but that leads to reminiscing and remembering only the good things vs remembering the reality of the situation. So I get sad, I read the texts, it slaps sense back into me and BAM I continue being a boss bitch at life.
The next NEW strategy - the 30 day plan. You do literally whatever you want for 30 days straight. No excuses, just do, do, do.
So far I...
did a soulcycle class with a bestie, overpriced workout but makes you feel so damn good.
joined tinder and set-up a hookup for next Thursday...yes, I am finally using tinder for what it's technically for...first time for everything. This toad is tall, lawyer, Brazilian, bla bla bla just be good in bed, k thx bye.
I am avoiding nice guys - if you're boyfriend potential, you don't wanna know me right now - this is wild child time & I want zero commitments and zero feelings.
Have went out literally every night since I dumped him...go hard or go home.
Revamped my room completely and re-organized my closet. I went nuts and moved my bed, tv etc. I needed a change in my environment and HOLY SHIT it made me feel soooo good! Not only did that take fucking forever to do but now my room feels so fresh, perfect for a new chapter.
I also cleaned our entire apt like a psycho & washed every piece of laundry/linen I own.
Booked my flights back home to Cali land. Only part that I dread about this trip is having to explain why I dumped him to 39423894934 nosy persians.
Told X Factors BFF who is also a friend of mine that he should strongly discourage X factor from any surprise appearances, I said everything I need to say and I don't need "closure" etc. I need him to stay the fuck away from me. Everyone keeps saying he'll come back in someway or form and "what are you gonna do when he does?" Ummm no idea because he hasn't & why worry about something that shows no signs of occurring. Boy, BYE.
That's all that I can think of right now...but it hasn't even been a week so I'm gonna give myself some kudos for taking control of my life in a major way.
Also - thank you so so so so much to Mia for hanging out with me legit everyday, you're honestly a saving grace in my life & i never have time to feel lonely because of you.
Tash - you know what you did & I couldn't be more thankful. Best gift you could give me at this moment in time. I love you.
I love everyone else too! Thanks for checking in. Stay tuned for my date tomorrow with Jake aka hot yoga fella, my hook up on Thursday and my weekend with J.
x o x o,