So fucking hard that I can't see/think straight.
Last night was amazing.
No, not with XF. With Antonio.
We went to a gala for a part of my friends 30th birthday celebration. I hadn't seen him since my tire debacle and we'd only talked minimally since. A few snapchat texts here and there kinda thing.
So he shows up looking SO SO SO hot. Tuxes are literally the best thing that could happen to a man. We grab drinks, I introduce him to everyone and we start chatting. He pulls me away from the group to go downstairs so we can catch up and hear each other. We talk for awhile and then return back to the group.
We do the photobooth (cutest pics of the night by far), then he takes me outside to the balcony. He tells me how beautiful I look, pulls me in and kisses me in the freezing cold air. As I shiver, he pulls me in closer, rubbing my arms, thanking me for inviting him, being adorable. Melt, melt, melt, melt.
It's stuff like this that you can't teach someone. XF tried all weekend to be more "hands on" in Dallas but it's just not who he is. Despite his efforts, he couldn't come close to making me feel how Antonio does and I barely know this guy. There is something to be said about a guy who this is just in his nature vs a guy who is just doing it to appease you.
We go back inside and decide to hit the dancefloor. Holy cow, he is so fun/funny. The most hilarious dance moves. He is swinging and dipping me around the floor, I am laughing so hard I can barely breathe - it's all just magical and fantastic.
We take a break to get another cocktail and walk past a piano. When he tells me he can play three songs, one being "don't stop believing" I urge him to jump on and do it. I grab my phone and start to document it. Snap story, check. (For all my real friends, you better go look now before it's gone)
While he's playing I am singing along and he's making eye contact and smiling at me. SO FUCKING HOT. I really can't see straight now.
I hate to keep comparing people in my head but XF would likely never dance and let loose like Antonio, jump on a piano in the middle of a gala, or kiss me in front of an entire room of strangers.
The butterflies are swirling and I can't stop smiling.
We close out the gala on the dancefloor and grab our jackets to head back to his place.
Shoot. If I go over there that means walk of shame in a ball gown in the morning...tomorrow is a Thursday aka that's really embarassing....Whatever, I'm not letting the night end here. It's been too perfect to quit now.
We get to his place and I feel the pins in my dress pop and start jabbing me in the back. I unzip it and start taking pins out, effectively leaving me naked on his couch, putzing with a dress.
He grabs me, tosses me into his bed and the fun begins.
All I can say is... WOW & x3, AGAIN.
We did a lot of talking so here are some notables:
He didn't take a date to his work party, he took a friend & was in bed by 10:30pm so it couldn't have been that crazy...right?
I don't think he's been on any new dates since me (not positive though)
I told him how my boobs are one of my biggest insecurities (they're massive and fucking annoying) and he was really sweet. "I like people who are in shape but I'm not trying to date a guy. I love boobs and your body is amazing, you have nothing that needs changing." He also kept saying this while naked in bed, thus making me feel a lot less self conscious. (we love guys who promote body positivity)
We discussed failed tinder dates again. He told me most of his aren't terrible they just aren't someone he has any romantic connection to and he never sees them again. He also said he's mostly swiping left. GOOD, GOOD, GOOD.
I told him about my first date with Sam and how much fun we and how that was likely the best first tinder date I've had. It was cool to be able to openly talk about dating pasts without it being weird/off limits.
He brought up my stuffed animals in my bed. To which I shrieked, "shit, I didn't hide them before you came over?!" He then said, "I know it's tough to keep all the dates straight but we did talk about this...."
LOL. That's actually pretty good. He's feeling like he might not be the only one because I can't remember discussing my really mature collection of stuffed animals. Good, sweat it out a little bud. He actually did say about 3x, "I know it's tough to keep all of us straight but..."
He told me he expected me to be boring in bed. Yes he actually used the word boring. "You just seemed like a really sweet girl. I didn't expect you to be so sexual and I suspect I have just scratched the surface on that...Sex with you is so much fun and I see it only becoming more and more fun."
Oh good, so you see this continuing - that's relieving considering online dating people say one thing and are gone the next. ANXIETY.
I keep expecting to lose him. Like he will just wake up and be like, ah shoot I found some little 5'2 girl who is super adorable and a lawyer so I'm gonna go for her now even though I like you.
I am still dating but it's hard to imagine finding someone I like as much as him now. I hope that feeling is mutual.
He did ask me to sleep over, I told him I'm not a morning person and the uber of shame is embarassing in attire such as this. He offered me sweatpants and to stay as long as I like in the morning but I felt it better to dip out, take off the 40lbs of makeup and get a good nights sleep. I also have Jake's Xmas work party tonight so I wanted to be well rested/not looking like shit.
I invited Antonio to my friends birthday party on Friday. He said it'll be a game time decision because he has another work party but he'd try to make it...Sounded very 50/50 so we shall see...
What I do know is that it's now his turn to make the next plan, ball is in his court. I left jewelry at his place by accident so I suspect we will see each other soon, in some capacity....plus the sex is insane, he won't be able to resist for too long. ;)
Elle in Lust
PS updates on everything else are next!