So I wrote this post last night andddd my computer decided to delete it.
So here we go again.
Let's start in DC and work our way to CA.
XF: Still in therapy, still babysitting my cats. We talk daily, nothing major to report. He knows about Rami. I posted a photo with Rami on facebook, his friend who is also friends with Rami saw, texted him first thing yesterday and he called to ask me about it. I told him Rami is my friend (truth) and that was about it. XF knows I don't hide things but also knows if Rami was a threat, I likely wouldn't have posted a photo with him. Lucky for me, I have photos with....Jake, Arash, Trevor, Antonio and now Rami. All the same pose thus, I aim to confuse. ;)
Arash: Still annoying me despite being hella far away. He needs a girlfriend ASAP. Any takers? Please? Pretty please?
Jake: Got over the run in with Antonio and is back to texting me daily. Glad we smoothed that one over...
Antonio: Sent me a Valentine's Day card!? (he told me via snap text the other night) Totally unexpected there...I'll report back when I get home and read it. This upcoming weekend he is spending with his ex. He said she's been pushing hard for it and he isn't sure how he feels... Theeennnnn he said he told her he enjoys dating and the single life...thennnn he admits he's only been seeing me since he met me...and he "really likes fucking me, alot" thennnn he said, "Elle, you're really amazing." Think we can check the "caught feelings" box off. He's now facing the new vs old dilemma. Say goodbye to a girl he loves and is comfy with but lacks sexual chemistry and say hello to me in a more serious capacity OR say ciao to me and go back to her.
I really didn't think he took me all that seriously but clearly he kinda got used to having me around/to talk to. I told him I want this to pan out whichever way will bring him the most long term happiness and I do actually mean that. I can't control how he feels, who he chooses, what he does. I can't control that with any of these guys so whatever happens, needs to happen organically - free of pressure.
(PS who am I in 2017??)
Nate: Back in Ohio, and I didn't go see him Tuesday. He called me yesterday before he hopped on his flight and said he's gonna come visit in DC...Ehhhhhh, I love Nate and he is an awesome guy but the sex is complete shit and I know I am not going to pick him at the end of all this. I'd like to spend time with him because he is my friend and I do truly enjoy him but if I allow him to come to DC, it's definitely entering the leading him on territory....Sigh. Why did it take him so long if he felt so strongly about me/kept me on this pedestal for all these years??
Rami: Oh Rami....The more time I spend with him, the more I like him and the more I try and picture what our life would look like if I picked him. On one hand, I think we'd have a very loving relationship and I do think it could work. Our love languages are 100% in alignment and I LOVE IT. But there is the whole lifestyle thing that we differ on. He currently lives at home (common amongst immigrants/middle eastern), he doesn't make a tonnnn of $ (decent but no dr/lawyer), and his parents would be involved in every aspect of our life. That being said, his entire family is in Orange County (so is mine), he shows love the ways I need to be shown it, he is so handsome I can't see straight, he's nice, he's funny, and he's got a jealous streak/protective side which I find incredibly hot. As immature as this sounds, I hate that no matter what I do - XF is never jealous, ever. Cmon XF, show me you care a little bit. Just be protective, that is SO attractive. I also really liked the territorial side of Jake. His friends would hit on me all the time and he'd swoop in and shut that shit down so hard and so fast.
Anyways, back to Rami. I am spending a bunch of time with him before I leave and I'm excited about it. Funny how a guy I never expected to see again turns out to be wonderful. Odds are we won't get married and end up happily ever after but right now, I am enjoying our little love story. ;) He also told me last night he was planning to come to DC in March to see me. Aw, I wouldn't be opposed to that. XF will be traveling so if I aligned Rami's dates with XF being gone, it'd be pretty seamless...We shall see where this goes but guys, I kindaaaa really like him. EEEEEEK! (If you are my fb friend, go lurk on the photo I posted of us..you'll understand that he's everything I've ever wanted looks wise. ;))
And that sums up the roster at the moment.
Check back tomorrow for some hot Rami updates...
Check back Monday for an Antonio update...
xo xo,
Elle
So here we go again.
Let's start in DC and work our way to CA.
XF: Still in therapy, still babysitting my cats. We talk daily, nothing major to report. He knows about Rami. I posted a photo with Rami on facebook, his friend who is also friends with Rami saw, texted him first thing yesterday and he called to ask me about it. I told him Rami is my friend (truth) and that was about it. XF knows I don't hide things but also knows if Rami was a threat, I likely wouldn't have posted a photo with him. Lucky for me, I have photos with....Jake, Arash, Trevor, Antonio and now Rami. All the same pose thus, I aim to confuse. ;)
Arash: Still annoying me despite being hella far away. He needs a girlfriend ASAP. Any takers? Please? Pretty please?
Jake: Got over the run in with Antonio and is back to texting me daily. Glad we smoothed that one over...
Antonio: Sent me a Valentine's Day card!? (he told me via snap text the other night) Totally unexpected there...I'll report back when I get home and read it. This upcoming weekend he is spending with his ex. He said she's been pushing hard for it and he isn't sure how he feels... Theeennnnn he said he told her he enjoys dating and the single life...thennnn he admits he's only been seeing me since he met me...and he "really likes fucking me, alot" thennnn he said, "Elle, you're really amazing." Think we can check the "caught feelings" box off. He's now facing the new vs old dilemma. Say goodbye to a girl he loves and is comfy with but lacks sexual chemistry and say hello to me in a more serious capacity OR say ciao to me and go back to her.
I really didn't think he took me all that seriously but clearly he kinda got used to having me around/to talk to. I told him I want this to pan out whichever way will bring him the most long term happiness and I do actually mean that. I can't control how he feels, who he chooses, what he does. I can't control that with any of these guys so whatever happens, needs to happen organically - free of pressure.
(PS who am I in 2017??)
Nate: Back in Ohio, and I didn't go see him Tuesday. He called me yesterday before he hopped on his flight and said he's gonna come visit in DC...Ehhhhhh, I love Nate and he is an awesome guy but the sex is complete shit and I know I am not going to pick him at the end of all this. I'd like to spend time with him because he is my friend and I do truly enjoy him but if I allow him to come to DC, it's definitely entering the leading him on territory....Sigh. Why did it take him so long if he felt so strongly about me/kept me on this pedestal for all these years??
Rami: Oh Rami....The more time I spend with him, the more I like him and the more I try and picture what our life would look like if I picked him. On one hand, I think we'd have a very loving relationship and I do think it could work. Our love languages are 100% in alignment and I LOVE IT. But there is the whole lifestyle thing that we differ on. He currently lives at home (common amongst immigrants/middle eastern), he doesn't make a tonnnn of $ (decent but no dr/lawyer), and his parents would be involved in every aspect of our life. That being said, his entire family is in Orange County (so is mine), he shows love the ways I need to be shown it, he is so handsome I can't see straight, he's nice, he's funny, and he's got a jealous streak/protective side which I find incredibly hot. As immature as this sounds, I hate that no matter what I do - XF is never jealous, ever. Cmon XF, show me you care a little bit. Just be protective, that is SO attractive. I also really liked the territorial side of Jake. His friends would hit on me all the time and he'd swoop in and shut that shit down so hard and so fast.
Anyways, back to Rami. I am spending a bunch of time with him before I leave and I'm excited about it. Funny how a guy I never expected to see again turns out to be wonderful. Odds are we won't get married and end up happily ever after but right now, I am enjoying our little love story. ;) He also told me last night he was planning to come to DC in March to see me. Aw, I wouldn't be opposed to that. XF will be traveling so if I aligned Rami's dates with XF being gone, it'd be pretty seamless...We shall see where this goes but guys, I kindaaaa really like him. EEEEEEK! (If you are my fb friend, go lurk on the photo I posted of us..you'll understand that he's everything I've ever wanted looks wise. ;))
And that sums up the roster at the moment.
Check back tomorrow for some hot Rami updates...
Check back Monday for an Antonio update...
xo xo,
Elle
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