That first photo I stumbled across was taken at my dad's company Christmas party. Bobby and I had just started offically dating about a week prior. So when I saw this photo, it really took me back to a happy place.
Before I know it, I am grabbing my phone, taking a picture of the picture and DM'ing it to Bobby on instagram at 12:14am.
Friends who knew me back in the day, don't let your jaw hit the floor too hard.
E: (Photo of us looking really cute) "organizing old pics and damn, we were babies. hilarious to look back at"
B: "where did you find that?!"
E: "my old,old,old hardrive from college that I am merging into iphoto, its a ten year project, so many memories!" (attach another pic)
B: "seems like lifetimes ago! crazy."
E: (photo) "lots of gems haha"
E: "I'm also curious how the hell I was ever THAT skinny. Any ideas? gimme some tips" (attach pic of me wearing a bandana as a shirt)
B: "no idea, me too haha - comes with being 18/19 I think. That outfit was prob one of the more ridiculous ones - things people not in college would never wear"
E: "omg there's so many! i am in shock at how poorly i dressed, its astounding."
B: "seemed appropriate at the time!"
E: (attachs photo kissing bobby, wearing a jean skirt w/ my thong showing) what the hell was that? I am dying. I remember you feeding me gatorade and easy mac, so idk how I was thin"
B: "the fade on the skirt is one thing haha, but year the thong above the skirt, that's something else. Clearly we were too busy to care"
E: "it baffles my mind" (attachs photo from prom dress shopping in LA with him) I happily wore that to my 27th birthday, so finally some dual usage. But seriously - so many funny photos. I'm glad we documented everything even before iphones existed. It all makes me laugh and smile way too hard." (attaches photo of Bobby next to a blue car) "do you remember this cars name?"
B: "Obviously! I still think "shitty" whenever I see that model car"
E: "Idk how we managed anything we did. No one rents cars at that age, no one has multiple fake ids, stays in hotels and literallys does anything/everything they want. we were such trouble"
B: "it was the best."
E: (attaches photo from prom when we won best dressed) "best dressed award goes to...."
B: "it was - and that outline pairing was pretty great - only outclassed by the following year with the custom tie made from your Prada dress."
1am - E: "Are you back east? Sorry if so, I know it's late, I figured you are 3 hours behind in Cali."
B: "yea, I'm east for the holidays, based on that I take it you're in OC?"
E: "I am in DC, insomnia. I do this photo thing when I can't sleep"
B: "Still dealing with that? Sorry, that stinks."
E: "Not always - just sometimes. Hard to shut my mind off"
(attachs photo dressed in Bobbys clothes) "omg you gave me your clothes for boy day and I think you were dating Cat haha"
B: "I think I forgot about Cat haha"
E: "Good, that was always my plan ;)"
B: "Back when you pretended not to like me and set me up with your friends only to get jealous about it"
E: "I liked you. You friendzoned me because you were scared what your parents would think. Remember you'd sneak into my basement? Idk how we ever left the friendzone to be honest. I know it was xyz's house but idk what made that finally happen."
B: "There was an element of that for sure, it wasn't that straightforward I don't think. Hmmm yea, I'm not sure either, but I was always attracted to you - I think at first I thought you genuinely wanted to be friends with someone in the neighborhood. Teenage boys aren't that smart you know...."
E: "I'd invite you over to tutor me in something I didn't need help with and then we'd makeout on my couch forever but hey, I didn't like you lol"
B: "Fair. In retrospect of course it's obvious"
E: "It was then too. Strategy has always been my strongest suit. But somehow that night at xyz's it just happened. In his poor parents bed, haha he was so pissed. That was like, a year later? In retrospect, it's good we were actual best friends first. Made things way more fun when we finally did the damn thing."
B: "That was so crazy - I still feel bad for him for that but of course don't regret it at all. And agreed, being friends first made it more fun (and real) when we did get together.
E: "We definitely did the whole first love thing right."
B: "Couldn't have asked for better."
E: "I am sorry for being an idiot, I didn't know any better. But I will say I think the majority of our chapters were good ones. And I am so glad you found your "person" you deserved it 10000%"
B: "Well that's the closest thing resembling anything close to recognition or an apology I've ever heard, so I'll take it. Agreed that the majority was the best and without any regrets at all."
E: "HEY! I apologized last Christmas over the phone and we talked for a long time, don't go forgetting that. And I'd say it in person if I saw you. I mean it. You were the best first boyfriend and I've never had a better adventure since. I keep searching and I can't seem to settle down."
B: "Heart emoji"
E: "I'll blame you for me not being able to settle down. How'd you know Jello was the right person? I'm always second guessing. I've almost been engaged twice and i just freak out. Idk how someone "knows""
B: "Not sure if I should accept that blame or not, but I can take it if you want...you were the best first love though, seriously, it was quite a ride and regardless of anything I remember it with fondness."
E: "You were the best too. Best friend, best adventurer, partier, lover, supporter and other half. Idk how I would've survived without you back then. We did it ALL together. You and I were always magnets. Even when broken up, we couldn't stay away and I kinda want that in whomever I marry. But I haven't found it since...I loved that about us. I always had butterflies before I saw you. Even when "I hated you". (Don't judge me for saying that)
B: "No judgment at all, I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel the same way back then. And that absolutely should be something you find in someone you marry."
E: "Yeah, I don't think most people have that."
B: "Agree - and I think sometimes it either is because they can't get out of their own way to let it happen, or sometimes it just isn't there and they are forcing it. But those years, that time in our lives, it's not going to feel exactly the same happening 5-8 years later, your approach and perspective on the world isn't the same."
E: "Yeah, innocence is gone. You don't need a person now like you thought you did then"
B: "and that part, that's something that those people who are high school sweethearts that end up married, they will always have that on the rest of us"
E: "Yeah, I guess I need to let go of that feeling. Can't replicate it now. I always thought it'd be us. A few others told me the same after your wedding. It was weird for it to not be Bobby and Elle. Not in a bad way, I mean we deviated and it was inevitable but it was funny to hear they all always expected us to make it. Since obv. no one else did"
B: "At the time maybe you didn't - but I thought we had a shot at it. I could have seen myself marrying you"