"I may have a tough shell, be a big shit talker, and have a streak of mean girl embedded within BUT that doesn't mean I don't have feelings too."
I guess when someone insults your family, in a VERY racist way, you never really get over that. (story of my fucking life BTW) However - I am grateful that back in that moment many moons ago -- my HS X stuck up for me and really defended my dad and I. I am ALSO so glad I didn't lash out at my HS X for anything and kept the drama based on his best friend, Bobby.
So I wrote Bobby a facebook message because I don't have his phone number or email and I didn't feel passionately enough to track it down.
Bobby, I want to apologize for yelling at you at a party. Clearly too many peppermint patty shots and not enough dinner (somethings just don't seem to change haha) -- had i been sober, I would've never allowed my resentment towards our past creep up and show itself. That being said, I do forgive you for the past. It really hurt me because I really did care for you as a close friend and confidant. You and I had a relationship even when HS X wasn't around and I appreciated the fun moments we shared.
Remember when we drove from X to Y in under 20 minutes in my dad's old car? Or when I'd get snowed in you'd come save the day in a truck so we could go get pizza? Or the days of fake id's and how you never got carded? Lots of good memories of our youth.
I wish you the best, I apologize again for being emotional and rude Saturday. I promise, if our paths ever cross - I will not be so foolish. I hope you forgive me for the outburst. Glad the air has been cleared and I wish you and your lovely family a great 2016. Praying for your dad as always.
So at least my conscious knows that I attempted to right my wrong. He replied with....
I am also very glad the air has been cleared, and I understand being emotional, I know I have done it before too, lol. I am truly sorry about my actions, and I do miss our friendship as well. -Bobby
What's funny is when I sent the message, it pulled all of our past messages up and the one prior to my apology was from 2/24/2010, Bobby saying...
Hi, I'm really sorry about what I did/ said. I hope your having fun over there, and I would love to be able to talk to you again.
I had completely forgotten about this but he had posted on facebook a rant about how "it must be nice to be rich and travel yet be unemployed all at the same time."
Which was directed towards me.
I had just begun my semester in DC which was how I spent my last semester of college and was having a good time. He was/is a car mechanic who works endless hours and gets paid poorly. His life path is not my fault so wtf dude, sorry I am smart and taking advantage of the opportunities I worked hard to have. Keep your resentment to yourself, you jerk.
I commented back on the rude post, told him to publicly fuck off and never spoke to him again. So he posted that when we weren't on good terms of talking (I just hadn't deleted him from FB yet) and then boom, he digs himself in the grave a little bit deeper. Mind you, he never apologized for the Osama comment.
The annoyance of this FB post never even crossed my mind in my drunken fury Saturday -- all I could remember was that July 1st, many years ago when he destroyed our friendship with one, hugely detrimental and heartbreaking comment.
I may have a tough shell, be a big shit talker, and have a streak of mean girl embedded within BUT that doesn't mean I don't have feelings too.
So whatever - I made a fool of myself, I apologized for what I did wrong, I meant what I said and now it's all over with.
Til next year,