I guess breakups are entertaining? haha, whatever it is, not madddd about it. Thank youuu! :)
First - today I woke up feeling sad. Second sad day I've had since I walked away...today what triggered it was the lack of good morning calls/texts...
XF would facetime me every morning at the exact time my alarm goes off so his face would be the first I saw. He'd show me his outfit and tell me he loved me and to have a great day.
The before bed calls I have been able to overcome by busying myself rewatching Gossip Girl, tindering, and hanging with Arash but how do I replace that AM routine?
So it's been a slow start to my day, feeling melancholy... then I get in the car, turn on my favorite country station and it's XFactor & I's "song". Luke Bryan, Play it Again. I changed it immediately but it made me feel nauseous with just the 3 second snippet I did hear. Ugh. Like I said before, we are alternating between phases of grief.
Onto MUCH hotter news...
Last night we matched again...within eight minutes of chatting, he asks to meet me for drinks.
Deets: Z, Persian, 31, Lawyer, Tall, Hot as FUCK, and witty.
Oddities: he works at the same law firm as G, yes our G & he went to law school with my bff B.
So B and I had discussed him many times...She told me how she was obsessed with him in law school but he was never available but is a really nice guy.
I text G who also assures me he's just as much of a catch as he's always seemed.
We chat for 1.5 hours on tinder & it's goooood. Witty, funny, easy.
So my hopes aren't up but I am really excited for this one only because I've been waiting for him to ask me for foreverrrrr!
Thursday, drinks, stay tuned ;)
Next, last night Jake was bugging about going on a weekend trip together in September... Like get on a plane and go somewhere kinda deal.
Can't we work on perfecting the dating in our city before we go get on a plane together?? Hmmmmm....
This poses issues because I can't go anywhere until mid September...if life has changed this much in 13 days, I can't even imagine what 1 month from now is going to look like.
- Cyrus and I really pick up speed? I can't go out of town for a weekend with Jake nor would I want to.
- Z & I click and start hanging out? I guess I could still go away for a weekend but IDK...
- I just have better plans that come along? Haha, mean...
And upon writing this - all has changed, yet again.
Confirmed: going to the beach on a couples weekend with A, Owen, Jake, and two of A's married friends...
Luckily A has become one of my besties so it'll be a good time just knowing we are beaching it up together. Ha, oh life.
Oh and OTFBro invited me to a baseball game Wednesday...gonna pass.
LASTLY, texted a little bit with Cyrus yesterday and it just tapered off and I didn't get a reply back to my last message. He kind of sucks at texting/tinder messaging so maybe it's NBD? My gut feeling is he had a date last night...he knows I want to see him this week so balls in his court to make it happen.
Anyways, time to actually do the kind of work that pays me.
Oh shit, I just remembered I forgot to tell you another story...
Arash returned from a wedding in NYC Sunday when I was out with Cyrus. We finally caught up after work on Monday & he was in the worst mood which NEVER happens. He tells me about the wedding and how he had to sit at the singles table...then he goes, "I should've just asked you to be my +1...I did think about it but the hotel room situation was a tight squeeze with my parents and then everyone would assume you're my girlfriend...."
Me: "I easily would've gone! It sounds so fun and I really wanna meet your brother and see your mommy again! You clown!!"
Arash: "Yeah, I'm an idiot. So tell me about your weekend..."
I tell him all about Cyrus and hooking up with Jake and then Cyrus again. I am visibly excited over Cyrus which got me a weird response from Arash...he wasn't too pleased? Then he starts showing me his dates for the week and topic changes...
Fast forward to much later in the evening - he comes into my room, lays in bed with me and says, "so who is the front runner in the single life of Elle?" I said, "Cyrus of course but I just got asked out by the hottest Persian guy, second to you of course and I am super excited!!"
I show him the photos and he goes, "competition is tight, damn."
Whaaaaaa the fuck is going on with us?