When you really love someone more than you’ve ever loved another it possesses you to do pathetic things. Don’t feel crazy, it’s basically a rite of passage (most people usually don’t fess up to them, thats all). But we aren’t keeping secrets here, so I am going to chronicle all of the pathetic girl things I did right before I walked away...I doubt any of you are ready for this.
2. In a wine induced mindstate I wrote a ridiculously dumb reddit.com post. I have never been on reddit prior to this. So this desperate action involved creating an account, figuring out how the stupid site works, and writing this pathetic girl post. I can’t even handle regurgitating that one so here’s the link so you can see for yourself. It’s pretty bad.
LOW MOMENTS. Sadly, everyone basically agreed with Dr. Laura that I am an idiot who is wasting my time -- they just said it in more words, so thanks Reddit peeps - you were right.
3. I sent two emails to the X factors mom. The first one I wrote in January when we were broken up and sent it to him saying, “if you ever want to fight for what you want, you should send your mom this email.” Finally in May he said, “send the damn email, what else is there to lose?” So I send this lengthy, heartfelt email and get zero response. Of course.
Email #2 happened a few hours after we broke up this time (aka the real time). I drove home from his house with my two cats, unpacked them, laid in bed mad as hell, and I sent her an email detailing every fun activity we had partaken in for the past two weeks and included a few snapshots. This was strategically sent at 1:30am EST...She goes to sleep at 9pm PST… X factor was getting on a plane at 6am EST...Mom doesn’t awake until 8am PST… = by the time the emailed is received, he is on an airplane for 6 hours unable to discuss or argue. Better yet, he can’t get mad at me because I have his number blocked on my phone, and mine blocked on his. If he isn’t going to be honest with her, I will be and I will have NO qualms about it.
So there are my top 3 pathetic girl moves. I don’t recommend acting like this -- you only feel like an idiot afterwards. I am happy that I know I fought for what I wanted and I asked for outside opinions to guide me in my situation. My friends have been telling me since month 2 that I am “too good” for him and there are better fish in the sea. I appreciate their support but no one besides me can understand the depth of the love I felt for this bozo.
If it wasn’t real, this blog wouldn’t exist.
So don’t beat yourself up if you’ve ever done something semi bat-shit crazy -- I think we have all been there.
Cheers to another day & the single life.
- I waited on hold for 45 minutes to talk to Dr.Laura on her Sirius XM radio show. 45 minutes for about 45 seconds of discussion. I finally get on - I tell her, “I will keep this brief. I have a boyfriend whom I want to marry, we’ve been dating for a year but his parents refuse to accept me because I am not Armenian, what do I do? I am petrified I am wasting my time.” -- Her response: “You are clearly not accepting reality. You need to move on, find a new boyfriend, and marry someone whose family accepts you exactly as you are - click.” SERIOUSLY? I am one of the most impatient people in the world, I wait for 45 minutes to talk to you, and THIS is what you have to tell me? Way to crush my dreams Dr.L. DAMMIT.
2. In a wine induced mindstate I wrote a ridiculously dumb reddit.com post. I have never been on reddit prior to this. So this desperate action involved creating an account, figuring out how the stupid site works, and writing this pathetic girl post. I can’t even handle regurgitating that one so here’s the link so you can see for yourself. It’s pretty bad.
LOW MOMENTS. Sadly, everyone basically agreed with Dr. Laura that I am an idiot who is wasting my time -- they just said it in more words, so thanks Reddit peeps - you were right.
3. I sent two emails to the X factors mom. The first one I wrote in January when we were broken up and sent it to him saying, “if you ever want to fight for what you want, you should send your mom this email.” Finally in May he said, “send the damn email, what else is there to lose?” So I send this lengthy, heartfelt email and get zero response. Of course.
Email #2 happened a few hours after we broke up this time (aka the real time). I drove home from his house with my two cats, unpacked them, laid in bed mad as hell, and I sent her an email detailing every fun activity we had partaken in for the past two weeks and included a few snapshots. This was strategically sent at 1:30am EST...She goes to sleep at 9pm PST… X factor was getting on a plane at 6am EST...Mom doesn’t awake until 8am PST… = by the time the emailed is received, he is on an airplane for 6 hours unable to discuss or argue. Better yet, he can’t get mad at me because I have his number blocked on my phone, and mine blocked on his. If he isn’t going to be honest with her, I will be and I will have NO qualms about it.
So there are my top 3 pathetic girl moves. I don’t recommend acting like this -- you only feel like an idiot afterwards. I am happy that I know I fought for what I wanted and I asked for outside opinions to guide me in my situation. My friends have been telling me since month 2 that I am “too good” for him and there are better fish in the sea. I appreciate their support but no one besides me can understand the depth of the love I felt for this bozo.
If it wasn’t real, this blog wouldn’t exist.
So don’t beat yourself up if you’ve ever done something semi bat-shit crazy -- I think we have all been there.
Cheers to another day & the single life.
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