That sad, doomed, depressed feeling has arrived.
I survived a full week without it and then one phone call changes everything.
XF's bestfriend called last night...told me that XF has no plans to contact me and will respect my wishes.
AKA he's fine ending this crazy fucking love affair via text.
I sent the last message saying, "its not enough."
I 1000000% expected a phone call that evening after work to try and work it out and talk...When that didn't happen, I was like holy shit...this is real...?
The next day I finally decided to tell people so I couldn't backtrack on this...accountability I guess....
So a full week and no calls, no emails, no surprise visits.
He sure seems torn up, doesn't he? jokes.
Do you think he was waiting for me to pull the plug so he could sleep at night knowing that it was "my choice" and he didn't do anything wrong except "not agree to a timeframe?"
Did I just get played???
Shouldn't he be calling me daily, trying to make contact. Shouldn't he be miserable??
WTF IS THIS.
He kept saying, "I know you're the person I want to spend my life with"....was that all just bullshit? Wouldn't you fight to keep that person? I fought for you, why can't you do the same for me?
I just don't get it.
Elle
I survived a full week without it and then one phone call changes everything.
XF's bestfriend called last night...told me that XF has no plans to contact me and will respect my wishes.
AKA he's fine ending this crazy fucking love affair via text.
I sent the last message saying, "its not enough."
I 1000000% expected a phone call that evening after work to try and work it out and talk...When that didn't happen, I was like holy shit...this is real...?
The next day I finally decided to tell people so I couldn't backtrack on this...accountability I guess....
So a full week and no calls, no emails, no surprise visits.
He sure seems torn up, doesn't he? jokes.
Do you think he was waiting for me to pull the plug so he could sleep at night knowing that it was "my choice" and he didn't do anything wrong except "not agree to a timeframe?"
Did I just get played???
Shouldn't he be calling me daily, trying to make contact. Shouldn't he be miserable??
WTF IS THIS.
He kept saying, "I know you're the person I want to spend my life with"....was that all just bullshit? Wouldn't you fight to keep that person? I fought for you, why can't you do the same for me?
I just don't get it.
Elle
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