As we approach January 1 when everyone makes their resolutions...I challenge you to contemplate these goals NOW. Let's all hit the ground at full speed on January 1, knowing damn well what we intend to do.
I feel as if time is passing by way too fast...I remember being 22 like it was yesterday. Make the changes you want to see in your life NOW so you don't wake up 8 years older and upset that shit still hasn't changed.
I know my number one goal is to ONLY allow myself to marry X Factor if...1. I FEEL a connection towards him that I can't live without 2. I no longer feel he is "settling" (which is how I feel about him these days, tbh)
Like I have said MANY times, knowing how successful XF is now and how he will continue to be, is a HUGE turn on. I love ambitious, strong men. But it can't be everything and lately, I feel I miss him as a best friend versus a lover and companion...all the success in the world can't make you connect to a person.
I'm not sure he's the guy I want to wake up next to everyday anymore. He stills annoys the fuck out of me with his immature little XFactor-isms...and I really need him to grow up. Sadly, that takes time.
Everyone keeps thinking we will be engaged in five minutes now that he's in therapy and on a PR tour but I truly can't see that being the reality for at least another 6-12 months. REAL change takes time and I don't want to be fooled and wake up one day, engaged, with a planned wedding, wishing I hadn't picked him.
What does this mean for you and I?
The blog lives on.
I've made the decision that once I get engaged (to whomever it may be), that will be the farewell to LINARC... My future husband can't read this and still view me the same. I don't need a blog leading him down all my rabbit holes and escapades. I do promise the entertaining sentiments will be around in a different venue that will be determined when we get to that road. (I am still SUPER single, so let's not get ahead of ourselves.)
Anyhoo - I am off to contemplate what I want to change in 2017...I will link you to the goals I set last year...Let's see if I accomplished them.
Oh & a reminder of our key players. :)
PS I just re-read my 2016 in review post...FML I am so disappointed in myself. WE can talk about it later.